My Favorite Books of 2013 :)

What makes this year (2013) really different for me?

This thing is really make a sense:

The Book of my favorite author Ika Natassa, here are her book that I have read:

 A Very Yuppy wedding,  Divortiare, Twivortiare, Antologi Rasa, Autumn Once More (Critical eleven) :

How, I knew these books?

The first time I knew about this book happened when I was in a middle of a class and sit beside one of my friend named Anik, she brought one of the book above with a title “Twivortiare”. After being in the same class for almost two years we finally knew that both of us are a reader, so we talk about the book that we love. I actually I romance loving, I am one of a billion fans of Pramoedya Ananta Toer and Mark Twain fans (See, you absolutely knew my favorite genre J).  Then Anik told me about one of a genre that I never knew before, which was a “Metropop”, she told me much about it and lend me Twivortiare which was one of the Metropop by Ika Natassa. And then I just read it in about 3 days, and it was absolutely amazing for my first experience to read a Metropop, a really different sense, it was like finding a new window to look at  this life (although is “a not so me” but it was great! :) )

I avowed this book have change some of “Me”.

After finished Twivortiare, I decide to buy “A very Yuppy Wedding”, “Divortiare”, and “Anotologi Rasa” at the same time (I am crazy fall in love with the writing style of the author), and the last is Kumcer Autumn Once More. Ika Natassa, you absolutely AMAZING!!!!:)

Beside the all of the novels, I also love the author, why?

1.       She is really smart and talented (Now she is working in Bank Mandiri as the ) and have won some award.

2.       She is really good at English, read her novels also learning English in a fun way…J

3.       She is really creative and good at painting.

4.       She is cool and gak jaim.

5.       Gak Sombong, I have send an email and ask something yang agak2 personal, diluar dugaan sama sekali, kirain bakalan dicuekin but in a few minutes she replay it and give a really good feedback. In my own experience, Ika Natassa is a second writer yang connect langsung sama pembacanya setelah Shin Abe, yang pas jaman SMA, pas saya lagi gila sama MANGA ngebales email saya dengan sangat “friendly”.

6.       We can follow all of her activity di twitter (jadi bisa asking anything about her project, mulai dari rencana novel, march, dan juga seputar “how to be a good employee” she is really friendly and smart.

7.       LOVE the novels and the author deh pokoknya. Her novels give another perspective in mylife terutama tentang menjadi a good women, harus mampu berdiri sendiri. And some career as a banker.:)

Buat sekarang, lagi pengen cerita tentang her next project buat jadi novel yaitu “Critical 11” yang jadi Cerpen di KUMCER AUTUMN ONCE MORE sama penulis-penulis yang lain.

Critical Eleven ini sangat-sangat keren!:)

Penulisnya sangat tepat menjadikan Cerpen ini jadi kayak pintu gerbang buat mengungkit rasa penasaran dan kelanjutan dan melanjutkan kekerenan ceritanya sampai jadi novelnya nanti. (Really wanna read the novel, but the author janjinya bakal ngepublish novel ini di tahun 2015…L so, I have to wait)

Ceritanya tentang Tanya dan Ale….and the cool friend of Tanya, yaitu Agnes. Tanya dan Ale baru bertemu saat flight ke Jakarta dan selanjutnya akan diceritakan dinovel…L

cerpen critical 11 ini syarat dengan quote2 keren dan masuk akal antara Tanya dan Ale. I love every single words in every pages (Critical Eleven cuma di 85-99), dan alasan mebeli Kumcer ini adalah karena cuma satu judul aja, yaitu Critical eleven ini, jadi pas pertama beli yang langsung dibuka halaman 85 aja.:D

This is some great dialogue of this short story:

 “Toko buku itu bukti nyata bahwa keberagaman selera bisa kumpul di bawah satu atap tanpa harus saling mencela. Yang suka fiksi, komik, politik, masak-memasak, biografi, travelling, semua bisa ngumpul di satu toko buku and find their own thing there. Bookstores are the least discriminative place in the world.”

—	Ika Natassa di cerpen “Critical Eleven”, Autumn Once More. (2013)

 “Waktu adalah satu-satunya hal di dunia ini yang terukur dengan skala yang sama bagi semua orang, tapi memiliki nilai yang berbeda bagi setiap orang.”

—	Ika Natassa di cerpen “Critical Eleven”, Autumn Once More. (2013)

“Expectation is a cruel bastard, isn’t it? It takes away the joy of the present by making us wondering about what will happen next.”

—	Ika Natassa di cerpen “Critical Eleven”, Autumn Once More. (2013)

TODAYS COLOURS

Today (I should make this “PATH ANALYSIS DAY” as the highlight)

I wanna start it the un “good” things that happen today (so I can close it with the good one) :

1.      Just spend maybe 6 hours to sleep yang kepotong-potong to finish the PATH ANALYSIS PAPER by myself even it should be in a group.

2.      Not even get a breakfast

3.      Not even get a lunch

4.      Not even get a dinner because I am not involving in the cooking process, so I do not have a right to eat.

5.      Walking from Kost to Campus and vice versa, really sorry to my shoes, “maaf banget becek-becek uda maksa kamu buat melewati jalan sejauh itu dengan berat badan yang lumayan, I am really sorry my shoes, I am gonna give you a rest for several days, promiseJ”

6.      I am failed to make my presentation, “a worst paper” she said to me. I am really upset, she just say it to me without even think it before, apakah pernyataannya will hurt me that hurt, while I have done it with all of my heart even I have not get Multivariate Lesson. I think I am doing it in a best way. I hope she find a better way in giving a comment to others works. Someday if I am becoming a lecture, I will promise to give a good words to my student, a good words in the way to give a comment and critics to others. :)

7.      A little bit desperate to my group partner, the have got Multivariate Lesson but they do not give their best effort to make the paper. Well, I am little bit underestimate “cowok” from now on. They are suck.”Astagfirullahalazdim, sabar fatia, sabar……J”

8.      Went back to the Kost, gue still the loser that can’t even get my own time, living with my family. NEED AN ESCAPE PLAN….

9.      FEELING SUCK….:)

And the best thing about today is:

1.      I have a second chance to make a better presentation about PATH ANALYSIS next Monday, walaupun itu artinya NO WEEKEND…

2.      Thanks to Dimas (one of my friend in Statistics 2011 Class of Brawijaya University) yang bersedia mendengarkan all of my story about the failed presentation and let me borrow his Identity Card to lend some books in the Library. Thank you so much Dimas.

3.      Thanks to Umar (one of my friend in Statistics 2011 Class of Brawijaya University), who also give a support for the failed presentation.

“Here I realize,,,the things that make it better adalah bercerita something that you really wanna share to a person that they not really wanna know and also not really not wanna know (hahaha) about you, Sharing my bad stories yang Cuma sekelewatnya saja without make it a big problem, just need to tell it….its even better than tell it to your best friend. J”

4.      Thanks to all of my friend yang ketemu tadi pas meeting KKN, you rock guys!!! Semoga KKN Desa Kotes kita lancar…aamiinJ

5.      Thanks to my sister yang uda masak,,,J

6.      Thanks to petugas perpustakaan yang hari ini really nice giving the services, and the mas-mas fotocopy that always giving the warm smile.

7.      Thanks to Allah, giving this really beautiful life.

Selamat Weekend;)

A Little Note

I Just Imagine this. . .

gegara dengerin lagunya OneRepublic ~ Come Home

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ven if you want, the time will never stop for a while. Who knows that actually the sun and the moon are tired and bored to shine and doing the same thing every time, rise in the morning and sleep at the night and the vice versa. Or who knows that actually they are really happy to shine your life every morning and every night. And who knows that actually they are smiling every time you look at the sky, although your feeling is blue.

Out of how sometime we forget to be grateful for this beautiful life that comes to us, we are to confuse to compare how good are our life than him, than her, than everyone. Somehow we just forget how we can breathe without fear, how we go to everywhere we want without fear, how can we sleep without a sound of a cruel gun as the back sound, and how we can feel really relax because there is still the smile of everyone that we love in front of us, maybe our parents, our sister and brother or our best friends, and it could be our special person in this life.

Wondering about the past or even in this time, there is still a war between human itself and destroyed many family that should be happy right now. Living everyday with the sound of the gun as the back sound every night, can’t go to everywhere they want, no beautiful breakfast and a special dinner where everyone of the family member sit and talk and smile with a warm conversation. All left is hope, a hope that this fear will stop as fast as possible.

Some of them are gone as the victim. Wondering that I am human too, we are the same but our life is different. Their right to be happy and living without fear are gone too, gone as everything is gone, where the thing that left is the sound of children’s crying in every corner of the street although actually now they have gone too.

How could sometime we always keep on grumbling on our “creepy” life, whereas we are lived on a very and really beautiful life without fear to do anything we want. Maybe we should give a more respect on what we get now and on who we are today and look down at the life that could not get it. This means that The God trusts us to get it and use it as a chance to make the things better. J

Prolog

“Sebuah Prolog

……………………………tentang Hujan”

Entah karena kehilanga kesadaran, atau antara bingung dan lapar, dan deresnya hujan, kata itu terucap begitu saja ketika kau lewat dengan tangan kiri membawa sebuah payung. “Bolehkah aku ikut” sungguh tak ada pikiran sebelumnya mengeluarkan kata-kata ini ketika kau berlalu dan kemudian berbalik arah dan menghiraukan ku. “iya, bolehkan?” kataku, dan kau mengiyakan. Dengan ragu ku langkahkan kakiku melewati genangan air yang mebentuk sungai kecil berwarna kecoklatan menuju payung yang telah kau pegang. Aku masih belum sadar.

Hingga kau memulai percakapan, “buru-buru pulang?” `pertanyaan pertama yang kau tanyakan. “iya, gak bawa mukena” jawabanku dengan otak yang bekerja seadanya. Sampai pada jalan dengan genangan air yang cukup dalam dan kau biasa saja melangkah membiarkan sepatu hitammu menjadi basah, kini dengan setengah sadar kutarik tanganmu dan berpikir kembali untuk menyelamkan sepatu pink kesukaanku ke dalam genangan air kecoklatan yang membentuk arus kecil tepat satu langkah di depan kita. Saat itulah aku berubah, sadar betapa salah tingkahnya aku.

“Satu-satunya yang kutakutkan adalah jika kau memandangku menjadi hawa yang mencoba merayu adam seperti versi sebuah novel tentang hubungan dua manusia itu”

Hingga kita berpisah dengan kata maaf darimu dan terimakasih dari ku. Kau berlalu, sementara aku berlari dan mecoba secepat mungkin kembali ke kotak kecil hangat di jalan bendungan di balik gang-gang kecil. Aku masih setengah sadar, mencoba mengingat kembali saat kau datang dengan payung ditangan kirimu, kali ini dengan mencoba mengingat kembali raut wajah mu seperti memainkan sebuah reka ulang dengan suasana hujan deras didepan taman kampus sore itu. Dan kenapa pula kesimpulan yang dapat kutarik adalah saat kau muncul ada senyum diwajahmu, atau mungkin kau selalu tersenyum setiap kali kau berlalu di depan siapapun. Entahlah, yang penting kau tersenyum, ah tapi mungkin juga tidak.

Dan di penghujung hari ini, kau tahu apa yang kupikirkan ? Betapa bodohnya aku bertingkah seperti gadis manja yang takut dengan hujan dan genangan air cokelat di hadapan mu, walaupun ku akui aku sangat menyayangi sepatu-sepatu itu “I am so sorry my shoes” inilah kata-kata tersisa di langkah terburu-buru ku menuju kotak hangat di jalan bendungan dengan tentunya lebih sering memikirkan ketidakrasionalan kelakuanku sejak membuat kau terpaksa berbalik dan memberi bantuan. Atau mungkin aku memanng gadis manja.

Dan hujan pun berlalu menjadi gerimis kecil di atas langit yang mulai ditinggalkan matahari, ku berterimakasih karena kau telah menjawab pertanyaanku dengan sangat bersahabat. Good things will happen to you, I am sorry, I don’t even know your name yet.

Entah, kau yang datang karena hujan atau sebaliknya.Lain kali akan ku bawa payung sendiri.

Hard to Say "Sorry"

For some of us, mungkin berani mengatakan kata maaf adalah hal terberat, sebagian mungkin tidak. Bahkan di salah satu radio (forget the name) ada acara khusus untuk minta maaf kepada orang yang mungkin saja tidak terucapkan, entah karena malu, sungkan, atau bahkan takut. The things that make it hard to say “sorry”.

Sometime, there is no idea to say “sorry” bukan karena terlalu sombong atau merasa benar, tapi karena merasa tidak ada alasan untuk mengatakan kata maaf berdasarkan “Rasional Subjektif seseorang” meskipun both of them are waiting to hear one of them to say “sorry”. 

A few days ago, just shared and talked with my friend about how hard to make a deal with amount of people,  jangankan banyak orang menyatukan pikiran dan pendapat dengan satu orang saja sangat sulit. Apalagi if you really think you can’t accept someone idea to bland with you. Karena setiap orang memiliki rasionalitas terhadap yang baik dan benar atau sebaliknya berbeda-beda, apa yang benar menurut orang lain bisa jadi tidak benar menurut seseorang lainnya and vice versa.

These kind of thing sering sekali saya temui, terutama di saat mengikuti perkuliahan yang bersistem diskusi, pemateri yang menerangkan materi ingin menerangkan “A” tapi bisa jadi yang diterima oleh audience adalah “B” atau “C” atau “A-“ dan sebagainya, but disinilah peran sebuah diskusi dimana tidak perlu ada adu argument untuk menemukan mana yang kalah dan yang menang melainkan bersama-sama menuju kesepakatan akan mana yang benar and vice versa.

Atau hal yang sebaliknya terjadi adalah sebuah perdebatan. Yesterday, FMIPA UB held an open debate, (sayangnya hanya bisa menyaksikan di akhir saja karena ada kuliah…L) debate ini antara pasangan calon presiden and wakil presiden untuk BEM FMIPA UB 2014. Disini tidak ada kata sepakat akan mana yang benar dan salah, melainkan menunjukkan mana yang memiliki pendapat atau argument atau rencana atau apalah yang berhubungan dengan debate tersebut yang terkuat dan kesimpulan hanya dapat ditarik oleh para audience yang mengikuti debate, which one is the best.

What make discussion and debate make sense in the topic of “Hard to say Sorry”?

For me, someone hard to say “sorry”  adalah karena Rasional subjektif mereka berkata bahwa “I do not have any reason to say “sorry” “ tapi disisi lain mungkin orang yang merasa berhak untuk dimintai maaf berkata “you should say sorry” berdasarkan rasional subjektif dia. I believe everyone who read it pernah terjebak dalam sebuah percakapan dengan orang lain (maybe between two close person) yang bisa dibilang sebuah “debate” dimana keduanya saling adu argument akan kebenaran menurut mereka sendiri-sendiri walaupun ini bukan ajang pemilihan presiden dan wakil presiden. Because there is no general logic work, and no discussion , cuma ego masing-masing yang ingin memenangkan rasional mereka sendiri-sendiri.

If both of them kembali berfikir ulang, tidak ada yang ingin menyakiti dan disakiti, setiap orang ingin menjadi orang yang baik pastinya. Hanya saja mungkin dalam perjalanannya tidak sesuai dengan kondisi dan keadaan yang mereka harapakan, when logic stop and emotions start everything kinda blur and grey, , , and here kita hilang tanpa tau siapa yang benar dan salah sebenarnya.

“We are human, yang ku tahu bahwa setiap saat setiap kesempatan yang kita lakukan adalah berusaha untuk mencari kebenaran tentang diri kita sendiri, bukan begitu?”

So, in this very great moment J

Mungkin ada yang pernah terlibat a very hard conversation with me, here I realize that maybe I am the one who really wrong and stuck on my own “subjective rationality” and just trying to make may self in the right side. I am sorry if I have say impolite words and hurt everybody’s heart. J

Our Kim Soo Hyun .... :3

Our Kim Soo Hyun . . . J

Start my precious weekend by watching Korean Movie starring My One and Only “Song Sam Dong” (nama aslinya sih Kim Soo Hyun, tapi pertama kali kenal pas dia meranin Song Sam Dong di Dream High, he took my heart away. . .hehe)

Gak tau kenapa Kim Soo Hyun ini selalu ninggalin bekas special in each of his Drama or Movie, start watching his moving from :

Dream High (disini dia gak punya peran yang terlalu signifikan, namun di akhir episode dia yang jadi starnya, tapi tetep aja kegeser sama 2 personil 2 PM ama Suzzy Miss A and salah satu personilnya Girlband T-ara (forget her name,hee), secara Our  Kim Soo Hyun ini bukan anggota Boy band yang jago ngedance , but he had tried really Good!!!:) he has a willing to learn and he is soo natural)

Thief (he is totally look hot n sexy here . . . *komentar macam apa ini -____-, di sini Kim Soo Hyun lebih banyak melakukan adegan action, jotos2an gitu . . .)

The Moon that Embrace the Sun (He is totally look really really really like a King here, cute and cute . . .:3 Jadi suka sama karir actingnya, he is not act just as a modern, cool and handsome boy but also act in a colossal drama as the King of Korean Monarchy on that time. And he success to take my heart away as Ui seong King (Lee Hwon), and the triangle love among Ui seong, Yeong Myong, and Yeon U make the drama more dramatic, and also the back sound is really tiring and sound dramatic too, one of my favorite Drama ever:3)

Secretly Greatly

This is special, because I just finished to watch it a few minutes ago . . . All I can say is this movie is Greatly Crazy because :

1.     The Best Idiot act as an Idiot  ever by Kim Soo Hyun as Dong Gu (he looks really like an Idiot, but still he is cute biar pun jadi idiot yang ingusnya kemana2 and never doing anything right) :D , , ,and success as a cool spy as Comrade Won Ryu Hwan…:3

2.    This movie know how to make me cry . . . :’(

You have to watch it too,,,to understand what I mean . . .

3.    And also this movie know how to make me smile . . . :D

4.    Totally Cool . . .

All just say “Please survive, please be alive . . . .please” in the end of the movie, but he died! huh…

“Gantengnya masih bekas after watching it ampe besok2. . .”

You Rock Kim Soo Hyun . . .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am one of your fans . . . J

Children Are Hoping More from Their Parents

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hildren are hoping more from their parents

Just remembered my sweet student in private course, he is a boy, he is cool and handsome. Actually he is smart, but he does not really realize his ability, and unfortunately he is often late to come to the class. But still, I always put my best attention to all of my student (cieeeeeeeeeeeeh, , , ,). I guess something wrong with him, while his partner a boy too named Yuris is really diligent, they are really different like two side of a coin. But, I am not gonna talk about Yuris and not talk about how they study with with.

But this:

One night, both of them was late, actually no one of them coming after I wait for 30 minutes. Then the manager of the private course called them, and the manager told me that one of them will come in a few minutes. And guess who confirm to coming? he  is the lazy boy (sorry for calling you the lazy boy, but I believe you are notJ).

After waiting for almost 15 minutes, he finally came. I was really surprised that time seeing him, he came  with tears on his eyes, I ask him “What’s wrong with you?”, he won’t answered any of my questions, he just tried to stop his tears. So, I decide to not start our physics class while I decide to do some slow approaching (halaaaaaah, padahal bingung juga mw ngapain).

After a really tiring approaching for almost 15 minutes he start to talk with me:

Me : will you tell me what happened? I will listen to you, really . . .

Him: mom . . .

Me: what’s wrong with your mom??is she sick?

Him: nope, but mom . . .

Me : why . . . ?

Him : nothing, just . . . (he starts to cry again)

Me : what happen with mom? (I ask him with a really sweet and soft voice,hehehe)

 Then he start to tell me what happen with him and his mom, he tell me that he asked his mom to pray for him to pass the national exam that will held in a few weeks, but his mom just silent, then he asked his mom whether she have pray at Magrib time or not, but he knew that his mom has not prayed yet, so he started to grumble and show his disappointed feeling to his mom, and the fracas happened till he went to the private course place.

My head actually blank out when I finished to listen him, then I looked at him and smile. I ask him to stop crying, I am afraid that this little boy is starting to hate his own mother. Then I tell him that he is really lucking to still have a mother beside him, I tell him that my mom was not here anymore but here in my heart. He stops crying and began to listen to me. I told him not to worry and say to him “I believe and you have to believe too that from the deepest of your mother’s heart, she is always pray for you in any chance, even if you not ask for it. So, from now on you have to fight more and study hard and give the best for her”

He nodded his head and we began the lesson.

What I really understand that night is, a children are really hoping more to their parent beside financial support but the most important one is a MENTAL SUPPORT. Sometime, they need to know, they need to make their self believe that someone out there is really pray for them and support them and wishing to be a best person of them self. The boy I mean on my story have a really good financial support from his parents, a hand phone, a personal transportation, a high class clothes and shoes, and may spend a million rupiah in a day. But, he does not feel the mental support from his parents, although I believe that his mother always pray for him in every chance but not showed it to his child. And what happened to this mom and child is just a miss communication.

But I think here is the point that every children hoping more to their parent AND a parent also hoping more to their children. The parents give everything that they could give to their children; the kind of unconditional love that last forever. But somehow the children can’t easily understand about that in their age, so maybe a parent should also show their mental and emotional support to their children, because both of them is the hero for each other. J 

I hope this boy will be a great man in the future, and he will always love his mom and dad, and what he wish to be really become true. I always pray for your success Alief. :)