Our Kim Soo Hyun .... :3

Our Kim Soo Hyun . . . J

Start my precious weekend by watching Korean Movie starring My One and Only “Song Sam Dong” (nama aslinya sih Kim Soo Hyun, tapi pertama kali kenal pas dia meranin Song Sam Dong di Dream High, he took my heart away. . .hehe)

Gak tau kenapa Kim Soo Hyun ini selalu ninggalin bekas special in each of his Drama or Movie, start watching his moving from :

Dream High (disini dia gak punya peran yang terlalu signifikan, namun di akhir episode dia yang jadi starnya, tapi tetep aja kegeser sama 2 personil 2 PM ama Suzzy Miss A and salah satu personilnya Girlband T-ara (forget her name,hee), secara Our  Kim Soo Hyun ini bukan anggota Boy band yang jago ngedance , but he had tried really Good!!!:) he has a willing to learn and he is soo natural)

Thief (he is totally look hot n sexy here . . . *komentar macam apa ini -____-, di sini Kim Soo Hyun lebih banyak melakukan adegan action, jotos2an gitu . . .)

The Moon that Embrace the Sun (He is totally look really really really like a King here, cute and cute . . .:3 Jadi suka sama karir actingnya, he is not act just as a modern, cool and handsome boy but also act in a colossal drama as the King of Korean Monarchy on that time. And he success to take my heart away as Ui seong King (Lee Hwon), and the triangle love among Ui seong, Yeong Myong, and Yeon U make the drama more dramatic, and also the back sound is really tiring and sound dramatic too, one of my favorite Drama ever:3)

Secretly Greatly

This is special, because I just finished to watch it a few minutes ago . . . All I can say is this movie is Greatly Crazy because :

1.     The Best Idiot act as an Idiot  ever by Kim Soo Hyun as Dong Gu (he looks really like an Idiot, but still he is cute biar pun jadi idiot yang ingusnya kemana2 and never doing anything right) :D , , ,and success as a cool spy as Comrade Won Ryu Hwan…:3

2.    This movie know how to make me cry . . . :’(

You have to watch it too,,,to understand what I mean . . .

3.    And also this movie know how to make me smile . . . :D

4.    Totally Cool . . .

All just say “Please survive, please be alive . . . .please” in the end of the movie, but he died! huh…

“Gantengnya masih bekas after watching it ampe besok2. . .”

You Rock Kim Soo Hyun . . .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am one of your fans . . . J

Children Are Hoping More from Their Parents

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hildren are hoping more from their parents

Just remembered my sweet student in private course, he is a boy, he is cool and handsome. Actually he is smart, but he does not really realize his ability, and unfortunately he is often late to come to the class. But still, I always put my best attention to all of my student (cieeeeeeeeeeeeh, , , ,). I guess something wrong with him, while his partner a boy too named Yuris is really diligent, they are really different like two side of a coin. But, I am not gonna talk about Yuris and not talk about how they study with with.

But this:

One night, both of them was late, actually no one of them coming after I wait for 30 minutes. Then the manager of the private course called them, and the manager told me that one of them will come in a few minutes. And guess who confirm to coming? he  is the lazy boy (sorry for calling you the lazy boy, but I believe you are notJ).

After waiting for almost 15 minutes, he finally came. I was really surprised that time seeing him, he came  with tears on his eyes, I ask him “What’s wrong with you?”, he won’t answered any of my questions, he just tried to stop his tears. So, I decide to not start our physics class while I decide to do some slow approaching (halaaaaaah, padahal bingung juga mw ngapain).

After a really tiring approaching for almost 15 minutes he start to talk with me:

Me : will you tell me what happened? I will listen to you, really . . .

Him: mom . . .

Me: what’s wrong with your mom??is she sick?

Him: nope, but mom . . .

Me : why . . . ?

Him : nothing, just . . . (he starts to cry again)

Me : what happen with mom? (I ask him with a really sweet and soft voice,hehehe)

 Then he start to tell me what happen with him and his mom, he tell me that he asked his mom to pray for him to pass the national exam that will held in a few weeks, but his mom just silent, then he asked his mom whether she have pray at Magrib time or not, but he knew that his mom has not prayed yet, so he started to grumble and show his disappointed feeling to his mom, and the fracas happened till he went to the private course place.

My head actually blank out when I finished to listen him, then I looked at him and smile. I ask him to stop crying, I am afraid that this little boy is starting to hate his own mother. Then I tell him that he is really lucking to still have a mother beside him, I tell him that my mom was not here anymore but here in my heart. He stops crying and began to listen to me. I told him not to worry and say to him “I believe and you have to believe too that from the deepest of your mother’s heart, she is always pray for you in any chance, even if you not ask for it. So, from now on you have to fight more and study hard and give the best for her”

He nodded his head and we began the lesson.

What I really understand that night is, a children are really hoping more to their parent beside financial support but the most important one is a MENTAL SUPPORT. Sometime, they need to know, they need to make their self believe that someone out there is really pray for them and support them and wishing to be a best person of them self. The boy I mean on my story have a really good financial support from his parents, a hand phone, a personal transportation, a high class clothes and shoes, and may spend a million rupiah in a day. But, he does not feel the mental support from his parents, although I believe that his mother always pray for him in every chance but not showed it to his child. And what happened to this mom and child is just a miss communication.

But I think here is the point that every children hoping more to their parent AND a parent also hoping more to their children. The parents give everything that they could give to their children; the kind of unconditional love that last forever. But somehow the children can’t easily understand about that in their age, so maybe a parent should also show their mental and emotional support to their children, because both of them is the hero for each other. J 

I hope this boy will be a great man in the future, and he will always love his mom and dad, and what he wish to be really become true. I always pray for your success Alief. :)

The Script . . . :3

Just a few minutes ago histeris teriak-teriak denger lagu The Script di acara Breakout . . . :D

Kenapa kok sampai teriak-teriak . . .?

Just don’t know . . . I love Their Voice . . .

Pertama kali tau tentang The Script itu dari video covernya Maddi Jane yang nyayiin lagu milik The Script yang judulnya Breakeven. I absolutely fall in love with the lyrics then search for that song, dan nemulah si The Script ini kira-kira 2 tahun yang lalu . . . dan sudah cuma dengerin lagunya yang ini aja.

Dan a few weeks ago,,,iseng-iseng dengerin lagunya yang judulnya I am Yours, kirain isinya standarlah gitu dengan judul kayak gitu. . .But out of my prediction, ternyata lagunya mellow-mellow gitu and I also love the lyrics . . . Start from these two songs, I state that I fall in love with this band, especially for Danny’s Voice . . .:)

His voice is contained something and connect aja gitu with my ears. . .:D

Dan setiap ngerjain tugas, sekarang mesti diiringi sama suara My Denny ini . . . :D

Mulai dari lagunya yang Hall of Fame feat Will.I.am. . .trus yang Six Degrees of Separation (yang lagi gue dengerin sekarang) trus yang I am Yours, Breakeven, dan pasti yang ini The Man Who Can’t be Moved, dan lain-lain . . .

Actually I have felt this phenomenon to love someone voice before Abang Denny ini,  yaitu The Voice of My Adam Levine….Ouooooh Men,,,he won my heart before…:D halaaaah lebay.

It’s funny how sometime  a voice , just a voice can make you “fall in love” . . . J

Nih dia nih My Danny right on my Desktop :

one of a hidden note:)

I am just a person who is really afraid on what I breathe, not how I breathe…..

“Sometime it just begins, when all of things in our life feel so pathetic. With all the hustle and the bustle of this life, we just often forget to be grateful. Maybe I could change the subject, right? No us, but me…..”

It is like listening to Moonlight Sonata, when all of the melody brings you up and down. Beating your heart as if it stop at a moment in the cold midnight, when you wake up lonely, and you start to think about what happen to your life from a, to b, to c, ... and to z. You think it more and more and more like a play list with “replay all” mode. From the sadness to the madness things is playing back like movie trailer on the dark night wall in the side of your bed. Past to future, past to future, past to future…without even play the present.

Living with all of your obsession, and you realize that the time is flying by without any change in your life. The dark blue feeling is spreading out from your brain, at that moment you are drowning in the deep blue sea without any effort to trying to get the surface of the sea, the sea of hope to fight more. And with open eyes, you could see the little fish moving around your body and look at your pathetic life.

“Somehow, I never believe on what people say about ‘just close your eyes and everything is okay, because nothing changes when I open my eyes.”

At the end,  you ask for an “undo” . . . you ask for a second change to make things right, although you really know that no one can back and change the past. And suddenly the words is spreading out from the wise man “nothing can change the past, but you can make a better future by present………….just enjoy your life, don’t bother yourself……..and so on”. You have heard too many wise words, until you even don’t know how to do it, just like consume a  paracetamol to heal your high temperature without even know how it work.

And you find your self smile, trying to say I am Ok.

The Bond of Her Wings

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ave you ever feel that you stand in the wrong place?

Kind of feeling that make you worry sometime, especially when the night turn into dark and really quite, desolate. When every title of the song which use “come home” as two of their lyrics sound really dramatic.

As the time running and nothing change for many years, as the very big hope at first change into nothing at the end. Its feels like you should be at another place, a place that far away from where you standing right now. You seem really want to fly away and take all of your clothes and your stuff and bring it with your big suitcase and you say “See, I am coming home Darling!”. But, although you really and truly could have a pair of wings and fly away, still you can’t fly. There are many chains that bond with your wings in the top of it, and cruelly hold you at the place where you are now.

Then, you pray from the deepest of your heart, asking to The God that you want to go . . . to go to the place where you should be, imagine your smile and their smile mix together in the frame of happiness and in a second it turn into tears upon your face as you really want it to become true. You cry in front of The God and keep asking . . .

And maybe, in every night you spend to wondering how its feel to go home till you sleep tightly, The God give a little present to bring you home “In Your Beautiful Dream”. Although, in every morning you wake up you never realize how beautiful your dream was, but just the calendar speaks loudly and tell you that today is the first day of the month and you take a very deep breath and say “Okay God, it will take longer than I expected”.

And sometime you find yourself in loneliness. Where the things that you fight to cut the chains from your wings never meet the ending. Your sadness turn to anger, you start to blame anything you can blame in front of your eyes. And you start to curse anything, the damnfuckshit words never represent your feeling, you destroyed, you being a “gooddamn destroyed”. Your plans, your dreams, your passion are stopping for a while, and actually for a long time, and maybe for a longer time, and you start to worry . . .

But in the deepest of you heart, you still believe that the day when you could spread your wing and fly away will really come in a right time, all you need is just be patient and keep holding on. It sounds as a bullshit but it is true.

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“I truly don’t know how, how come someone can really mean to a little life of hers . . .”

God please do something . . . bring a little miracle just to fix it . . . so the beautiful frame of their smile would really happen, aamiin.

How could we know and understand someone who life a hundred years ago….???

A missing space in my heart, hearing how amazing you are

I know you as a person with a brilliant brain

And a heart that made from a DIAMOND

Just some book’s pages

An identical name of your best friends, who believe and support you with their all

Page, page, and more pages

Could it draw your truth?

Could it bring you in front of me?

Could it even tell me who you are?

Oh . . . I miss you really much. . .

Could these pages bring you here just for a minute, to know who you are. . .

Who you are . . . my Guide.