Be Thankful For You, Who Already Have a Kind Heart

Sometime I blame myself about why I do not born as a kind heart person?

Maybe it sounds strange for those who have a good and a kind personality, including a kind heart type of person. But, I think here is the biggest part of us that determined our behavior as also always we called as “heart”.

I don’t really sure where to start to talk about this, but absolutely everyone want to be treated as well as it could be. No one want to get a bad treat from other, we want everyone treat as nicely. And I believe that a good relation between human can be done by a good treatment of each other, as how greet each other every day with a nice and a wide smile, how we share our problem as good as how we share our happiness and also help each other, giving and creating a comfort world for everyone around us, and everyone will be happy and appreciate for our present around them. I even can’t imagine it perfectly how this world become when everyone have such a good heart and tolerance.

But here I find myself that are not in the right way, sometime when I start to remain all the thing that happen in all day, I always stand in the wrong way. How my ears hear a bad yelling about my self, how my head get kicked by another person because of my silly behavior, how my eyes wet because I regret about what have I done before, all of the emotional explosion that spread from all of the part of my body.

“This is about how I treat people.

This is about every each word that come out from my mouth.

This is about every single negative thing that my brain process about my opinion to another people.

This is about how I can’t even just hear an advice.

This is about how I think my self is the best and think that another people is worse than me.

This is about all the dam* thing I ever do to another people”

I realize that I have been HURTING a lot of people around me.

And I ask my self, Why I turn into a mean person?

They say, “Mean People Are Suck”, I am shocked that I ask my self again “do I am a suck too??”

Then I decide to trying to be a nice and a kind heart person, I even search and read many article about being a nice person, one of them is an article under a title “How to Stop being a Mean Person” then I ask my self again and again “Do I really read this article????”

But, the article are really positive.:)

And during all of the process, I find that trying to be a nice and a kind heart person is really hard “its not easy”, and I think the hardest part of this is DEFEAT OUR SELF.

Defeating our self means we are ready to losing our own comfort, we are ready to against our own will, we are ready to compromise .

And I guest that the best part of all of the process is to reach a point when we are happy to losing all of our comfort, losing here does not mean we are turning into a loser, but losing mean we are ready to be a nice person and be meaningful for the other.

And unfortunately, every time I about to reach that point, I always fall and crying, I am exploiting like a fire mount.

So, be happy and grateful for you that born to the world with a kind heart . . . Because its not easy to be like that, we need to defeat our self. . .