I am just a person who is really afraid on what I breathe,
not how I breathe…..
“Sometime it just begins, when all of things in our life feel
so pathetic. With all the hustle and the bustle of this life, we just often
forget to be grateful. Maybe I could change the subject, right? No us, but
me…..”
It is like listening to Moonlight Sonata, when all of the
melody brings you up and down. Beating your heart as if it stop at a moment in
the cold midnight, when you wake up lonely, and you start to think about what
happen to your life from a, to b, to c, ... and to z. You think it more and
more and more like a play list with “replay all” mode. From the sadness to the
madness things is playing back like movie trailer on the dark night wall in the
side of your bed. Past to future, past to future, past to future…without even
play the present.
Living with all of your obsession, and you realize that the
time is flying by without any change in your life. The dark blue feeling is
spreading out from your brain, at that moment you are drowning in the deep blue
sea without any effort to trying to get the surface of the sea, the sea of hope
to fight more. And with open eyes, you could see the little fish moving around
your body and look at your pathetic life.
“Somehow, I never believe on what people say about ‘just
close your eyes and everything is okay, because nothing changes when I open my
eyes.”
At the end, you ask
for an “undo” . . . you ask for a second change to make things right, although
you really know that no one can back and change the past. And suddenly the
words is spreading out from the wise man “nothing can change the past, but you
can make a better future by present………….just enjoy your life, don’t bother
yourself……..and so on”. You have heard too many wise words, until you even
don’t know how to do it, just like consume a paracetamol to heal your high temperature
without even know how it work.
And you find your self smile, trying to say I am Ok.
I do believe that this life is dynamic. I also believe that this life sometime has its own loop just like what you said. past to the future, past to the future again and so on like the cycle of rain, from the sky to the mountain to the rivers, to the sea, and then the sky again. Altough its the same everytime, I think its also different at the same time. haha..
BalasHapusbtw, I also have the immune to the wise words... lol
glad you really understand what I wanna say trough this note . . .:D
BalasHapuswill find the difference at the same time, , ,hehe
haha... tell me how?
of course i'm immuned, the wise words are so common now. they are on sms, twitter, facebook, my mirror, the bottom of my notebook, walls, they are everywhere. So much, that make me come to realization that "it's just words, nothing more". Even i think that way, I also think that they are like the air that we breath, so common, sometime we don't aware how important or precious it is. :)
BalasHapushahaha. . . .agree,they are every where I am going . . . :D
BalasHapusyup, we don't aware how important or precious it is, because we do not feel it magical touch (haha,lebay). . .and I think I just give up on trust it, so it just like a common word. . .:(
But, someday I hope I can feel its magical power once in my life, , ,:)
amiiiin... !!
BalasHapussemoga kau tersadar dan dapat merasakan kekuatan sihirnya masnaaah... :D
well that name. . . . -____-
BalasHapus