I called my self as "her"

At the end . . .

Yeah…2014 is coming…:)

Still imagine what a year can do to my life. . .last year a person maybe mean so much, but this year become a stranger, even block his social media and never confirm his friend request ( so sorry, never mean to hurt you…even if I want, you never be hurt by me because you are too damn strong to be hurt, prince.)

Remembering when you text me immediately without any permission before, without any sign before, you just say “I am here”. “Oh, what the hell he is thinking!” you never know how shock I was. I don’t know its maybe another kind of happiness, or a madness in a happiness when you tell me that you are coming. And what . . . you surprised me with this “I got lost”. You never know how cute you are when you text me that you were lost, and one thing that I never understand “how come you still have a willing to get breakfast while you are lost in a place that you never visit before, -____- he is so weird!”

Then, I go to pick you up as your direction and what . . . “ You are still awesome even when I look at your back” ,,,

“Oh damn, this guy still look great even I just look on his back, even when he get lost!”

and you just smile, and I do not know what to do, you come just too fast , you, you the one who then broke my heart , , ,

you look really great, the best time for me being in my campus is when I bring you walk around . . .

But then you go. Without tell me anything.

Then I go to, without tell you anything.

Dear you the honest man I ever met before.

Beach always remembering me to the person I love, to the most beloved person I have in my life, my family : Mom, Dad, Brother, and sister, we love the beach, the coast, the wave, the sun, the sky, the sands, everything . . . everything about beach is always special in my heart.

Especially on new year’s eve, we always spend the night in the beach, bringing all the stuff and have fun in the beach with the others, our neighbor and some of the people in the village.

“Bermalam di pantai, tenda sederhana, tidur dibawah langit dan bintang dengan suara ombak, oh God, I can’t describe how I miss that moment. Bermain, tertawa lepas, dan makan makanan yang amat banyak itu (really miss this one) dan terbangun di pagi hari dengan pasir menempel dimana-mana. Kemudian berenang di pantai (meskipun gak sepenuhnya bisa dibilang berenang, karena memang `gak bisa berenang). I LOVE THAT MOMENT!!!!”

                Then, beach is also remind me of you, you the one for the first time bringing me to that place, then we talk much in front of the wave   . . . you also make me have my favorite beach ever (meskipun gak tau nama pantainya itu apa, have too big ego to ask you), the view is really great, the blue sky, the blue water, not too much wave, a gentle wind, and a beautiful trees and also a small rocks , , ,you are really great at choosing a beach. . . :)

Actually, really wanna enjoy the view, the beach that I love but rather that enjoy the view, you make me cry. Then I cry, too much crying until I can’t enjoy the view . . .-____-

But, it was great, I hope someday I can be there even it will not be with you.